Friday, June 19, 2009

people come & go but the memories no matter how bitter or sweet, remained.

through out my life, i met thousands type of people, da pretender, da actor, da straight, da hypocrites, da mumy's boy, da dady's puppy, da spoilt brat, da innocent etc. im not judging people but obviously, but by observing people behaviour makes u tink," how dis guy can end up wif dis kinda gal where he deserves sumone beter than her?" dis Q was asked by one of a gafren of mine when we bump into a tall+dark +handsome+lists of 100 guys gal hunting for wif his sweet plum munchkin+ a simple+humble+plain type of gal, well, to make it simple, they are TOTALLY contrast i.e. the beauty & the beast or shrek & fiona. i reply to her Q, babe, we owez prejudge people by way he/she look but one thing dat we dun realised, the purity of a heart. dat is why he chose her, the way she treat him+the way she appreciate his existence+the way she mingles people around him+the way she bring herself wif or without him around+her maturity towards their relationship+her actions when they are involved in arguments+how they tackle it+how they get thru their own list it all down, hell a lot! but dis are sum of it when a guy like him see in dat gal which we blindly didnt realised. we owez tote perfect guy have to be wif perfect gal bla bla bla....yeah..after all, wat makes life beter each & every day is wen u found sumone who can fill ur weakness, hurmmm..kip on hunting gal!

Thursday, June 18, 2009

rindu yang sik sampey

hurmm...susahnya menahan hati.ambak ati jak. tapi, yalah. sumtime ,silent can be the best arm for keeping peace. im not being harsh. im not mean. but, everybody deserve to be order for people to be happy, they have to meet other people so that they can forget the sad things dat ever happened in their lives or any sad stories before. so, for me, to let sumone hepy, its beter for you to refrain ursef to get close to them or else the tendency for them to find their happiness will never happen, i presume! wateva people tink da way i do, da way i say things, da way i treat them, i hope n i rili hope they knew y i did this, not because im bad or not because i try to exclude mysef, but, by still having me in their existence, its impossible for them to muv on as my existence will affects the new one. dats it. so, i choose dis way. let it be remained like this. for the good sake of everybody, i choose & i've decided.

"if u love sumone, sets him free, if he comes back to you, he's urs, if his neither, he never was".

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

aku yang mengantok

im sneezing da whole day yesterday n sambung pagi tok till now. oh, i cant afford to fall sick eh. dis may be the cause from lack of sleep, its not that i wana neglect my body to rest, but my mind couldnt stop tinking of dat "things"! n i dunno wats da reason for me to kip on tink n tink n tink da same tink+same issues+same facts! damn it! it seems like it will be running thru my blood soon, huihhuh..please please oh please i hate to feel dis way, i hate to kip dis tings inside me but i cant express it. dats da problem wif me. out of all things, i just cant. dats it. oh ya, now i figure out dat dis is da main probs to my sleeping disorder symptom lately n i keep on pampering mysef to allow it to grow up actively in my mind, so weak of u!i hate mysef for kip dis tings, i hate mysef for not being me myself anymore, n i hate mysef for allowing people to hurt me;(. a lot of tingy stucked inside my brain now, if not even tinking of my liabilities...hurmmm...probably im in sum "place" where no one know my existence.start new life. new things. learn to accept new people.learn to mingle wif strangers. live life fully without kip on tingking very much of other people. ya Allah ya tuhanku, give me a strength to live wif dis kinda tings, padamu aku berserah dan Kau tunjukkan aku jalan yg Kau redha.amin.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

planet sambal

i had my lunch tonite wif mak n bapak@ planet sambal, situated next to SOHO. a gud place to eat actually, the surrounding, the way they renovate the place really attract my eyes, coz the place was conquered wif pink color;) i likeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!

my mood is not stable today since i burst out my anger to sumone who i prefer to call as "bodohsombong" type of person,huh! he made a mistake, obviously, n this is not the 1 st time he was caught by me, but a number of time, n to make it worst, he dare to answer me back! damn it! this kinda people never realised the mistakes they made & he only knew how to cover their stupidity by telling others that the one who scolded them (which is me!) hasnt show respect to him! WTF! how shud sumone respect for this kinda people who never learned from their past mistakes! huh! he really ruined my mood for da whole afternoon! damn it!

Monday, June 15, 2009

hari isnin

hari isnin, pemulaan hari, tp aku sgt sgt malas, xtauk pahal...jez feel empty.kosong. why?lotsa things flying in my minds, works, future, people surrounding, history (who come & go), well actually, i allowed it to be dat way (damn!), how to manage my finance (sumtime i tink dat im having a financial crisis especially wen im broke for which nobody knows!) tinking of being a partimer lecturer, but till todate havent finished fill in my resume(gosh), why am i being so procrastinated?!!kip on telling mysef everyday but still do da same routine! damn it!sumtime i hate mysef, to the extent i feel stress n end up sleeping to avoid it! i noe dat im having bad lifestyle ;( , now wat i nid is guts to change mysef! now! n dis is my 2nd blog after i create da 1st one, but since my babes couldnt find it, so i intend to create another one. see u guys then.